Seeing You With My Eyes Closed

Nights have been really weird for me since I don't know when. I noticed that each time I become really stressed or depressed about something, a certain girl appears in my dreams. I remember how she looks like. I recognize her each time I see her. But whenever I'm wide awake, I can't seem to describe her facial features. These dreams have been visiting me since my early years of adolescence. Meaning they started when I became a teenager and started facing problems in a serious way.

The strange thing about this girl is that as I grew up, I noticed that she has also grown in some ways. Her face have matured and her physique has changed unlike when we were young. She never really did speak. Ever since the night I met her, until now; I never really heard a word from her. Each time we communicate in my dream, she just nods or shakes her head instead of saying "yes" or "no". I have set my mind into asking her about her identity and most of all, her name. But whenever we meet, my mind couldn't think of anything else but just the desire to be with her. It's really freaking me out because my dreams never end without her giving me a kiss on the lips. She likes to kiss me, but she never told me why. She lets me hug her and we cuddle in a seemingly formal way. It's not like I wished for it or anything, but whenever I enter the world of dreams, there is one thing I'm sure of. She belongs to me. It's like I own her or something. Even though we do a lot of stuff together, I've never seen her smile or laugh. Her face shows no emotion. When she looks at me, I feel her emptiness. It's as if she's tired of being sorrowful and at the same time, she forgot how to be happy.

I just wish to know who this girl is. What is she to my life? How are we related? Is she someone I met a long time ago? What connection do we have?

There are so many questions in my mind, but I'm not sure if an answer exists.

The Person You Are To Me

For me, you are the most precious object in this world. Compared to all the riches, to me you are a one of a kind diamond. No one will be able to determine your value. To me, losing you is like losing a crystal clear water in a buffeting sandstorm in the desert. You are like the sun, without you I won't feel warmth and I would probably die in the darkness. Being the sun to my cold day, I know that you can shine brighter above all others. You have this amazing sophistication of royalty and undying charisma like nobility. So I guess what I'm trying to say is, I like you. And there's something deep inside me that'll probably overflow with happiness if I'll be given a chance to tell the world how much you mean to me. If there's something that'll remain with me forever, that'll be my love for you. I love you.




I feel bad when you complain about your imperfections. I hate seeing you each time you blame yourself because of bad things that happened. I don't care if you have imperfections, 'cause those imperfections made you who you are. You imperfections are the reasons why I came to love you. Because you have those things that I don't think others can even possess. I love you just the way you are.